Body Image

“I don’t know what you see in me.” — I’ve said this to Alpha many times —

Like most women, I struggle with body image issues. We all compare ourselves to the women we see in magazines (well-knowing they have been photoshopped and airbrushed), on television, in movies, and yes, even porn, and feel that we’re not good enough–breasts too small, butt not perky, tummy too round, icky love handles, and now, no six-pack abs. We know it’s unrealistic to think we can look like those women whose lives revolve around dieting, exercise, trainers, and plastic surgery (because their livelihood is tied to their bodies), and not around family, work, and limited finances. And if you’re a woman of “a certain age”, as I am, on top of everything else, you’re contending with gray hairs, wrinkles, and a traitorous body that is slowly creeping south.

Alpha tells me I’m beautiful in his eyes, that He could never see me as anything but beautiful, and that I’m perfectly imperfect for Him. He constantly reassures me of His love for me, and His desire for me. And I hear the sincerity in His voice, see it in His eyes. Still, I struggle.

Logically, I know what He means because I love Him, and in doing so, love His body. He has many scars from repeated surgeries that attempted, with limited results, to fix an injury He suffered in the military. And like me, He’s no longer a spring chicken…er…rooster. But I love every imperfection, every scar, every extra pound. I crave His body, love worshiping every inch of it with my fingers, lips, and tongue. I want that beautiful body sleeping beside me for the rest of my life.

He is my perfect sexy Alpha. Why is it so hard to see myself as His perfect sexy kat?

14 thoughts on “Body Image

  1. As I stated in a poem I posted a long time ago, fashion is just another person’s opinion of how we should look and act. But it is far sexier to be confident in being ourselves. If only we all could see ourselves through the eyes of a loving mate.
    Good post, kat.

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  2. You’ve already mentioned it, but it’s worth repeating, you truly will always be beautiful in my eyes, kat, my love. And while I prefer wolf metaphors, since you brought up the rooster, I will always want to cock-a-doodle do you… and be with you for the rest of my life.

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  3. Oh Kat, I so relate to what you are saying and I feel the same. Unfortunately it can colour my reactions to things, so HisLordship not only has to reassure me, he has to work around it at times too. There is so much more to a person than physical beauty though and your love for each other shines through each post that you write – that is what is really beautiful. I hope that, like me, you find that although those old issues remain, they are easier to manage with the D/s than they were before. Here’s hoping that things continue to get better and perhaps one day, we can truly see ourselves through their eyes.

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    1. Thank you for the inspiring words, missy. I see the great love you and HisLordship share in every one of your and His posts. It’s a beautiful thing.

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  4. All woman seem to struggle with their body image. I as well. I went from being a toothpick to post childbirth oddly shape curves. Im currently working on my body to physically feel good and to keep diseases at bay. I love me and I still carry on as a sexual being and I dress accordingly no matter what my body looks like because it’s just me.
    Embrace all that’s you!!

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    1. We all come in different shapes and sizes, and that makes us interesting. My mind tells me one thing, but emotions another…I wish they could come together while I’m still alive. 😁
      Thank you for your thoughtful comment.

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  5. The great gift of submission is from my perspective, made that much more lustrous when s not only feels but believes she is as beautiful as she in fact is. So to render my Domination worthy of her submission , I feel it is my duty to do all that I can to nurture this positive perception.
    And it is in this that I am most severe and punishing. On myself.
    And with good reason, for when s feels ugly or worthless then it is I who has allowed her submission to become tarnished and dull. And if her submission is thus withered under my Domination, then my Dominion is weak and worthless. s must thrive before D can Dominate in a fashion worthy of the treasure of her submission.
    s will never know that the harshest of my strokes are dealt upon my own heart, when s feels ugly or worthless.

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    1. Thank you for your thoughtful response, Whippoorwill.
      I know many Doms feel it is their duty to make their subs feel beautiful, and every woman, whether in a D/s or vanilla relationship, wants to be beautiful in her man’s eyes. But that confidence has to come from inside as well; no Dom, no matter how attentive to his sub’s needs and wants, can entirely convince her of her beauty unless she can fully embrace her own worth. Some things a sub has to work on in her own mind. I’m not saying a loving Dom can’t greatly influence his sub, only that he can’t do it all…in my humble opinion.

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