No matter how good a relationship, from time to time, wounds from past relationships can rear their viperous heads and one reacts—or doesn’t react—accordingly. Case in point:
A few days ago, Alpha informed me that He had written a post for an upcoming holiday. Somewhat confused, I asked, “You wrote something for Presidents’ Day?”
After telling me that the post was for Valentine’s Day, He made a joke, and started laughing. Though I saw the humor in it, and laughed with Him, I also felt bad for my oversight. I love my Alpha more than I have ever loved a man. How could I forget the holiday of lovers’? I felt terrible.
I apologized, and as I have in the past when explaining why I’m not as demonstrative as He is (though I have been working on that), Alpha told me not to worry about it, that He understood.
He knows my past.
He knows that I married young after getting pregnant, and that my first husband never grew up. He knows husband one never gave compliments, hardly ever gave gifts, and never celebrated Valentine’s Day. He knows husband two was quick with the so-called romantic gestures, but was an emotional abuser. He knows I placed no value on second husband’s flattery and gifts because of the abuse.
Over the course of time, I grew to dislike Valentine’s Day because I no longer believed in the kind of love it celebrated, considered it naïve to do so.
And then Alpha entered my life and showed me that romantic love was real, showed me that people who truly love each other express that love in myriad ways. And He does—daily. I want to do the same for Him, and I try, but it’s not something that comes naturally to me; I have to work at it. And work at it I will because our love is worth it. He is worth it.
Alpha is a good man, kind and gentle, but firm and strong-willed as well. He is a warrior in a world that seems to no longer value warriors. But I do. He is exactly what I need and want. He is my man, my Daddy, my everything.
Valentine’s Day is almost upon us, a day of flowers, candy, mushy cards, and candlelight dinners; but I don’t need any of those things. I have my Alpha, and He is all I want and need.
He is the greatest gift I have ever received.
Happy Valentine’s Day, Daddy. 💘